I felt like posting something (and procrastinating on my late essay hehe) and I only have one post in my medical nerd tag LOL So here's some of my homework from my microbio class~ Not exactly the homework but just what I learned overall and summarized in a few paragraphs. I learn so much in that class omg. I love learning about medical terminology <3
**DISCLAIMER: I am not an expert on vaccinations. This is just a few things I learned in class from my professor that has a doctorate degree. Technically students address her as "Dr." and not "Professor". Just sayin... Also, this is my opinion. Don't take it so personally if vaccines aren't for you. Just don't be near me during flu season.**
I cannot stress how important it is to get vaccinated. You literally put yourself and other people at danger if you don't get vaccinated because you're more susceptible to getting the virus that causes influenza. There is a significant distinction between getting the flu and having a cold. With a cold, you're able to function. Not properly because you know coughing and a having a stuffy nose but you can still walk, go to school, go to work, eat, and all the events people do in their daily lives. However, you cannot possibly function when you have the flu. Influenza will drive your body into extreme exhaustion and will leave you feeling fatigued. Plus you have a fever, feel headaches, and bodily aches and pains so... yeah. Drastic difference there. I can't imagine someone wanting to get up with all those symptoms occurring at the same time.
Now, people will bring in the argument that even though they've been vaccinated, they still got sick.
Scenario 1: A woman said that she got the stomach flu despite being vaccinated a few days before.
Vaccinations take about two weeks to kick in. You have to let the dead virus or whatever is in the vaccine to multiply and then get into effect. Also, there is a difference between a bacterial infection and a viral infection. The flu shot only targets viruses. Not bacteria. I can go into detail the differences between the two but that would take a while (just look it up).
*Quick note: Influenza is a viral infection and the stomach flu is either a viral or bacterial infection. Most likely bacterial if you're able to function properly the next day.
Scenario 2: You get the flu even though you got a flu shot even after waiting it out for about three weeks.
Two factors contribute to this: #1 Because viruses are always constantly mutating, it's very difficult to create a perfect vaccine that will prevent the flu from everyone permanently. #2 Genetic differences. Some people's genes respond nicely to the vaccine and are less susceptible to having the flu. Some are not so lucky and are more likely to have the flu. That doesn't give a valid reason though to not get a flu shot. It's better than being an exposed target to getting the virus without any protection. It's like going to war. Would you rather go out to war with no weapon or a sword?
A few other questions:
- Why do I need to get a flu shot every year?
*See scenario 2, factor #1 from above.
-What if I'm allergic to eggs? (Because vaccines are made normally with eggs.)
There are alternative ways to making the vaccines besides using eggs. I'll provide the link to the alternative and its process along with some other cool ones.
-Why can't I take antibiotics like the ones I get from the doctor?
Different antibiotics target one specific thing that will eventually lead to the deterioration of the pathogen. An antibiotic cannot wipe out a virus. Plus the antibiotic might be specifically only for bacterial or some type of eukaryotic pathogen and not viral ones.
Well, that's that. I hope you learned a thing or two from this and I really hope you get vaccinated, especially around this season when the weather is cold and everyone gets sick. It's the fall season over here in San Francisco. At one point, everyone in my apartment was sick. It was horrible. Hope you had a great day, afternoon, evening, whatever time it is where you are.
Links
Key Facts About Seasonal Flu Vaccine
How Influenza (Flu) Vaccines Are Made
Saturday, October 29, 2016
Friday, October 21, 2016
More about me pt. 5
ASK ME THINGS - celadon-city
1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?
I'd cover my chest, wake him up, and ask him what the hell happened.
2. What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
Nothing cuz I've never kissed anyone~~~
3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?
Hell yeah I would. I want him to be healthy and not slowly kill himself.
4. Is your last name longer than six letters?
Nope.
5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
Neither cuz I'm a lip virgin LOOOL
6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?
Well, I liked people but I just let things flow without me intefering because I gave up on the idea of me being in a relationship. I honestly cannot see myself in a relationship because of traumatic rejections. I'm terrified of getting treated like shit again when the guy knows my feelings for him. I'm always in this toxic cycle when I have feelings for a guy and he knows about them. That's why with the guy that I have feelings for right now, I can never tell him. It's best for him and me. He has other stuff to deal with and we've been through so much. I don't want to throw it away because of me. It sucks at times but what can I do? He did something unforgivable and yet I still love him. Call it over-exaggerating but if only you knew how much he hurt me. It's unconditional if yah know what I mean. He's gonna find someone that he loves and she'll love him because she's gonna fall in love with every part of him, accept him for who he is, and love him unconditionally like me. Oh well. Life. That's just me. Don't judge me.
7. What does your last received text say?
"frickin cat..."
8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
I've never kissed anyone sooooo LOL
9. Where was your last kiss at?
Omg. I've never kissed anyone. Sheesh. So many kissing questions...
10. When was the last time you saw your sister?
Last weekend.
11. What do you drink in the morning?
Either my vitamin drink or my nutrition shake. I don't eat breakfast.
12. Where did you sleep last night?
In my apartment.
13. Do you think relationships are hard?
I dunno. I've never been in one LOL
14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?
Um... I would've asked my teacher in my AP gov. class if I could move seats because I was really uncomfortable where I was sitting at that time and talk to him about why. I was so fucked up with boy drama, I didn't want to pay attention in class. I wanted to leave the classroom and cry by myself. I didn't want to anyone to comfort me. I felt as if I was thrown away by someone that I really cared about. He didn't give a fuck because he was with his fucking girlfriend. I hated them. It was disgusting seeing them around school. He dehumanized me and saw me as some sexual thing without any consideration of my feelings for him even though he knew that I had feelings for him. And in return he got a fucking girlfriend. Was that really worth traumatizing and dehumanizing someone and ruining someone's physical and mental health? A fucking girlfriend? Life was horrible at that time and a few months before that. (I'm not in a good mood right now obviously)
15. You're locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?
No because it's just me~
16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
Sunny~ I love the warm, happy feeling :3
17. Do you anyone with the same middle name as you?
Nope.
18. Are you wearing jeans, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Sweats. The friggin cat scratched my thigh and it still stings...
19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?
HAHAHA NAAAH. That's literally impossible.
20. Does anyone like you?
HAHA YOU'RE SO FUCKING FUNNY.
21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?
No. Lip virgin here.
22. Is the last person you kissed gay?
Well I've never kissed anyone so no LOL
23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?
Oh my goodness yes. One of my best friend's ex gf. I fucking hate her. And this girl in my stats class that reminds me of her.
24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?
Yeup. A rose. I dunno where though.
25. In the past week, have you cried?
Almost today but no.
26. What breed was the last dog you saw?
The cutie was a golden retriever :3
27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?
In the shower.
28. Have you ever kissed a football player?
Uh no. I've never kissed anyone. I'm getting sick of these kissing questions...
29. Do you think you're old?
No because I look like a junior in high school.
30. Do you like text messaging?
It's alright.
31. What type of day are you having?
Eh. The first half of my day was fun but the other half was meh.
32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
Nah. I'll stick to my ears.
33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
I really don't care. I can adapt.
34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Yeah, he's one of my best friends :3
35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?
A relationship.
36. Are you a simple or complicated person?
If you know me, I'm complicated af.
58. Do you get along with girls?
Yeah. I have more females friends than guy friends.
59. Have you dated the person you texted last?
No.
60. What do you carry with you at all times?
My phone.
61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?
Maybe. I'd just stay in one spot and stay there the whole night.
62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?
I dunno. I've never been in a relationship before.
63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?
No.
64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?
Yeah...
65. Did anything "cute" happen in the last week?
Yes, last night's outfit :3
66. How old are the last three people you kissed?
LOL what people
67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?
I'd rather do it myself.
68. Which do you like better- Zebra print of leopard print?
Leopard print.
69. Do you have any stickers on your car?
I don't have a car. Not gonna drive in SF LOL
70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?
Lil Wayne. I don't like country music.
71. Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?
It's between Android and iPhone.
72. When's the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?
A long time.
73. Do you like diet soda?
Ew no it's so sweet.
74. What color are the walls in your room?
A boring beige.
75. Are you 16 or older?
Yes.
76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?
I used to but then I got sick of the whole "A" thing.
77. Do you have a job?
No but I wish.
78. What are your initials?
MI
79. Did you ever have braces?
Well I have braces now so yeah.
80. Are you from the South?
Nope. From Nor-Cal.
81. What does your last status on facebook say?
I dunno. It's been awhile since I posted a status.
82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?
LOL What kiss??????
83. Are you closer to your mom or dad?
Neither.
84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?
Nope.
85. What's the last movie you saw in theaters?
Suicide Squad. Ew. Not worth money. It was too hyped up.
86. Do you smoke?
Nooooo. I love my lungs.
87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?
Flip flops cuz they're comfortable affff
88. Is your phone touch screen?
Yeup both are.
89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?
Straight.
90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?
Nope. I couldn't if I wanted to anyway LOL
91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?
Uh pool. I can swim but I can't float LOOOOL
92. Have you ever made out in a car?
Nope cuz I've never had my first kiss. Lip virgin afffff
93. ...Had sex in a car?
O_O No. I'm a virgin.
94. Are you single or in a relationship?
Single AFFFFFFF. Been single my whole life.
95. What were you doing last night at midnight?
I was on my laptop doing something. I forgot what though.
96. When's the last time you saw fireworks?
July 4th.
97. Do you like the camera on your phone?
No. It sucks.
98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?
Nope.
99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?
Nope. I might do that one day though knowing me LOL
100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?
Nah. I usually block people that I hate.
101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?
Uh no. I'm too young to get pregnant.
102. Name your favorite Kesha song:
Blah Blah Blah
103. Do you have any tan lines right now?
Yeah but they're fading out.
104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?
Cowboy boots with short shorts yes.
1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?
I'd cover my chest, wake him up, and ask him what the hell happened.
2. What's going on between you and the last person you kissed?
Nothing cuz I've never kissed anyone~~~
3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?
Hell yeah I would. I want him to be healthy and not slowly kill himself.
4. Is your last name longer than six letters?
Nope.
5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
Neither cuz I'm a lip virgin LOOOL
6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?
Well, I liked people but I just let things flow without me intefering because I gave up on the idea of me being in a relationship. I honestly cannot see myself in a relationship because of traumatic rejections. I'm terrified of getting treated like shit again when the guy knows my feelings for him. I'm always in this toxic cycle when I have feelings for a guy and he knows about them. That's why with the guy that I have feelings for right now, I can never tell him. It's best for him and me. He has other stuff to deal with and we've been through so much. I don't want to throw it away because of me. It sucks at times but what can I do? He did something unforgivable and yet I still love him. Call it over-exaggerating but if only you knew how much he hurt me. It's unconditional if yah know what I mean. He's gonna find someone that he loves and she'll love him because she's gonna fall in love with every part of him, accept him for who he is, and love him unconditionally like me. Oh well. Life. That's just me. Don't judge me.
7. What does your last received text say?
"frickin cat..."
8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?
I've never kissed anyone sooooo LOL
9. Where was your last kiss at?
Omg. I've never kissed anyone. Sheesh. So many kissing questions...
10. When was the last time you saw your sister?
Last weekend.
11. What do you drink in the morning?
Either my vitamin drink or my nutrition shake. I don't eat breakfast.
12. Where did you sleep last night?
In my apartment.
13. Do you think relationships are hard?
I dunno. I've never been in one LOL
14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?
Um... I would've asked my teacher in my AP gov. class if I could move seats because I was really uncomfortable where I was sitting at that time and talk to him about why. I was so fucked up with boy drama, I didn't want to pay attention in class. I wanted to leave the classroom and cry by myself. I didn't want to anyone to comfort me. I felt as if I was thrown away by someone that I really cared about. He didn't give a fuck because he was with his fucking girlfriend. I hated them. It was disgusting seeing them around school. He dehumanized me and saw me as some sexual thing without any consideration of my feelings for him even though he knew that I had feelings for him. And in return he got a fucking girlfriend. Was that really worth traumatizing and dehumanizing someone and ruining someone's physical and mental health? A fucking girlfriend? Life was horrible at that time and a few months before that. (I'm not in a good mood right now obviously)
15. You're locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?
No because it's just me~
16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
Sunny~ I love the warm, happy feeling :3
17. Do you anyone with the same middle name as you?
Nope.
18. Are you wearing jeans, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Sweats. The friggin cat scratched my thigh and it still stings...
19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?
HAHAHA NAAAH. That's literally impossible.
20. Does anyone like you?
HAHA YOU'RE SO FUCKING FUNNY.
21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?
No. Lip virgin here.
22. Is the last person you kissed gay?
Well I've never kissed anyone so no LOL
23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?
Oh my goodness yes. One of my best friend's ex gf. I fucking hate her. And this girl in my stats class that reminds me of her.
24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?
Yeup. A rose. I dunno where though.
25. In the past week, have you cried?
Almost today but no.
26. What breed was the last dog you saw?
The cutie was a golden retriever :3
27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?
In the shower.
28. Have you ever kissed a football player?
Uh no. I've never kissed anyone. I'm getting sick of these kissing questions...
29. Do you think you're old?
No because I look like a junior in high school.
30. Do you like text messaging?
It's alright.
31. What type of day are you having?
Eh. The first half of my day was fun but the other half was meh.
32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?
Nah. I'll stick to my ears.
33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
I really don't care. I can adapt.
34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Yeah, he's one of my best friends :3
35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?
A relationship.
36. Are you a simple or complicated person?
If you know me, I'm complicated af.
37. What song are you listening to?
Be Comfortable by Simon D, Gray, and One.
38. When you say sorry, do you mean it?
Yes of course. I always mean it. If I mess up, I will admit it.
39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everthing about you?
My sister LOOOOL She knows me so well, I can send her to the mall, shop for me, and I'll end up liking what she picks for me. Same in reverse heh.
40. What made you start liking the person you like now?
Wow we're getting very personal here. Well actually, my junior year of high school, I had small feelings for him but then I had more feelings for this other dude. Moving onto senior year, I started liking him the more time I spent with him. He made me laugh a lot and we talked often because of our classes and inside jokes. I had half of my classes with him the first semester but class and complications and requirements and so next semester, we had two classes together. I dunno, one day, I thought that he looked cute. I dunno how man. It just happened. Then I kept ignoring it for a few days because yah know maybe that's just my mind wandering into weird territory. (oh wow ok thanks what2do is playing perfect timing... -_-..) Eventually I admitted it. I told my friend from choir that I like him and she kept teasing me about it LOL
41. When did you last receive a text message?
11:26 pm
42. What is wrong with you now?
I'm annoyed at a lot of things.
43. How well do you know the last female you texted?
Not that well but we always go out to eat when we're craving food, especially when I crave LOL
44. Does anyone disgust you?
One of my best friend's ex.
45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?
I don't know honestly. I'm scared of being in a relationship.
46. Are you in a good mood right now?
No.
47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?
My roommate's sister.
48. What color shirt are you wearing?
I'm not wearing a shirt LOL
49. Has someone recently told you something you didn't want to hear?
Yeah...
50. Anyone you're giving up on?
Uh. I dunno honestly.
51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?
I did but I don't anymore.
52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn't?
YEAH SO MANY TIMES IT'S SO ANNOYING. My indecisive and curious mind bothers me at times...
53. Do you like rain?
Yeah. California is in a drought. We're hella thirsty here ;) LOOOL
54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
No but if he does excessively, then yes.
55. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Yeah like right now LOOOOOL
56. Do you like to cuddle?
What. I dunno. I've never cuddled or whatever that shit is lol
57. Are you shy?
In certain situations yes.
Be Comfortable by Simon D, Gray, and One.
38. When you say sorry, do you mean it?
Yes of course. I always mean it. If I mess up, I will admit it.
39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everthing about you?
My sister LOOOOL She knows me so well, I can send her to the mall, shop for me, and I'll end up liking what she picks for me. Same in reverse heh.
40. What made you start liking the person you like now?
Wow we're getting very personal here. Well actually, my junior year of high school, I had small feelings for him but then I had more feelings for this other dude. Moving onto senior year, I started liking him the more time I spent with him. He made me laugh a lot and we talked often because of our classes and inside jokes. I had half of my classes with him the first semester but class and complications and requirements and so next semester, we had two classes together. I dunno, one day, I thought that he looked cute. I dunno how man. It just happened. Then I kept ignoring it for a few days because yah know maybe that's just my mind wandering into weird territory. (oh wow ok thanks what2do is playing perfect timing... -_-..) Eventually I admitted it. I told my friend from choir that I like him and she kept teasing me about it LOL
41. When did you last receive a text message?
11:26 pm
42. What is wrong with you now?
I'm annoyed at a lot of things.
43. How well do you know the last female you texted?
Not that well but we always go out to eat when we're craving food, especially when I crave LOL
44. Does anyone disgust you?
One of my best friend's ex.
45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?
I don't know honestly. I'm scared of being in a relationship.
46. Are you in a good mood right now?
No.
47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?
My roommate's sister.
48. What color shirt are you wearing?
I'm not wearing a shirt LOL
49. Has someone recently told you something you didn't want to hear?
Yeah...
50. Anyone you're giving up on?
Uh. I dunno honestly.
51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?
I did but I don't anymore.
52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn't?
YEAH SO MANY TIMES IT'S SO ANNOYING. My indecisive and curious mind bothers me at times...
53. Do you like rain?
Yeah. California is in a drought. We're hella thirsty here ;) LOOOL
54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
No but if he does excessively, then yes.
55. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
Yeah like right now LOOOOOL
56. Do you like to cuddle?
What. I dunno. I've never cuddled or whatever that shit is lol
57. Are you shy?
In certain situations yes.
58. Do you get along with girls?
Yeah. I have more females friends than guy friends.
59. Have you dated the person you texted last?
No.
60. What do you carry with you at all times?
My phone.
61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?
Maybe. I'd just stay in one spot and stay there the whole night.
62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?
I dunno. I've never been in a relationship before.
63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?
No.
64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?
Yeah...
65. Did anything "cute" happen in the last week?
Yes, last night's outfit :3
66. How old are the last three people you kissed?
LOL what people
67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?
I'd rather do it myself.
68. Which do you like better- Zebra print of leopard print?
Leopard print.
69. Do you have any stickers on your car?
I don't have a car. Not gonna drive in SF LOL
70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?
Lil Wayne. I don't like country music.
71. Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?
It's between Android and iPhone.
72. When's the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?
A long time.
73. Do you like diet soda?
Ew no it's so sweet.
74. What color are the walls in your room?
A boring beige.
75. Are you 16 or older?
Yes.
76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?
I used to but then I got sick of the whole "A" thing.
77. Do you have a job?
No but I wish.
78. What are your initials?
MI
79. Did you ever have braces?
Well I have braces now so yeah.
80. Are you from the South?
Nope. From Nor-Cal.
81. What does your last status on facebook say?
I dunno. It's been awhile since I posted a status.
82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?
LOL What kiss??????
83. Are you closer to your mom or dad?
Neither.
84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?
Nope.
85. What's the last movie you saw in theaters?
Suicide Squad. Ew. Not worth money. It was too hyped up.
86. Do you smoke?
Nooooo. I love my lungs.
87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?
Flip flops cuz they're comfortable affff
88. Is your phone touch screen?
Yeup both are.
89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?
Straight.
90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?
Nope. I couldn't if I wanted to anyway LOL
91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?
Uh pool. I can swim but I can't float LOOOOL
92. Have you ever made out in a car?
Nope cuz I've never had my first kiss. Lip virgin afffff
93. ...Had sex in a car?
O_O No. I'm a virgin.
94. Are you single or in a relationship?
Single AFFFFFFF. Been single my whole life.
95. What were you doing last night at midnight?
I was on my laptop doing something. I forgot what though.
96. When's the last time you saw fireworks?
July 4th.
97. Do you like the camera on your phone?
No. It sucks.
98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?
Nope.
99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?
Nope. I might do that one day though knowing me LOL
100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?
Nah. I usually block people that I hate.
101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?
Uh no. I'm too young to get pregnant.
102. Name your favorite Kesha song:
Blah Blah Blah
103. Do you have any tan lines right now?
Yeah but they're fading out.
104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?
Cowboy boots with short shorts yes.
Chill.
The cat that's in my apartment scratched my upper inner left thigh and that's a really sensitive area. It was bleeding a lot and now I have a paper towel on it that's held by 2 band-aids. It stings like hell even with the paper towel. I swear this cat just loves to annoy me. I was so annoyed with her chewing on my laptop, my wires, and bugging the hell out of me, I had to move some of my stuff in my closet. I mean my area looks cleaner but there was so much stuff on my mind, the cat was the last thing I wanted to think about. At one point, I wanted to cry out of frustration.
I apologize to my friend in Utah. I'm drinking thai tea and pocky right now and yes, I know it's very bad for my cough since I sounded like I was dying last night but I need my comfort food to help me chill the fuck down.
It still stings...
Sunday, October 9, 2016
K-pop questionnaire
I missed blogging and I felt like posting something K-pop related because of all the K-pop happening~
BUT YO SHINEE'S COMEBACK YES HUN U GO BBYS WERK DAT 90S CONCEPT <3
This literally screams 90s concept LOL
I think I'll have some fun with this post :3
7. Have you made any friends because of kpop?
Oh my goodness yes. Many wonderful and amazing friends and you can read about my whole story with K-pop and making friends in Reasons why I'm K-pop trash.
9. Have you ever regretted getting into kpop?
Definitely no. It's one of the best decisions I made in my entire life because it changed me for the best and helped me become the person I am today :)
BUT YO SHINEE'S COMEBACK YES HUN U GO BBYS WERK DAT 90S CONCEPT <3
This literally screams 90s concept LOL
I think I'll have some fun with this post :3
KPOP Tag Game! - hobiihyungg
1. Favorite hairstyle on your bias?
My bias group is SHINee but waow I have a lot of biases from different groups :3 Mmmm I'll just pick Infinite just cuz lol. My bias in Infinite is L/Myungsoo. He's such a cutie omg.
A cute guy in a suit is one of my weaknesses.
2. Have you ever introduced a friend to kpop?
Yes and now she's deep in the kpop hell hole with me hehehe :3 She's also one of my besties <3
3. Would never listen to kpop again if it meant you could spend an hour with your bias?
Aw hell no. That's never worth it. LOOL
4. Favorite solo artist?
Ailee <3 Her voice is amazing omfg. Just listen to this. No words needed to describe how amazing she is: [HIT] 에일리 - I will always love you 불후의 명곡2.20140412
5. If you could be in any kpop group, which one would you be in?
2NE1 because of the whole badass thing they have going on and because Park Bom is one of my nicknames. LOL I don't wear pants that often like Park Bom when she does performances and photo shoots. It's mostly shorts and really long shirts and or sweaters. Some days, it looks like I don't have any pants on hehe ;) During dance practice with KDT, the members would joke about where my pants are haha.
YAAAAS 2NE1 SLAY QUEENS <3 (Park Bom is on the far left with the black hair. Mah bias in 2NE1~)
6. If all your biases ran a race, who do you think would win?
Well duh Flaming Charisma Minho from SHINee. He's so competitive it's adorable~
So adorable omg.
7. Have you made any friends because of kpop?
Oh my goodness yes. Many wonderful and amazing friends and you can read about my whole story with K-pop and making friends in Reasons why I'm K-pop trash.
8. Favorite kpop friendship?
You mean OTP? Haha jk. I love Kai and D.O.'s friendship~ It's so adorable, there are fanfics about this ship and by fanfics I mean it'll make you cry at 2AM fanfic. Like dude. If you're an EXO-L or were into EXO since the early "Exotic" days, then you know what Anterograde Tomorrow is. Seriously though, even if fanfics aren't your thing, you definitely need to read this. It's so beautifully written and it will seriously give you sad depressing feels at 2AM. And yes it's better to read this at 2AM and drown in angsty sadness.
Anterograde Tomorrow
Summary: Kyungsoo is stuck in the hours while Jongin begs the seconds, because time stops for someone who can't remember and runs from someone who can't miss the last train home.
You mean OTP? Haha jk. I love Kai and D.O.'s friendship~ It's so adorable, there are fanfics about this ship and by fanfics I mean it'll make you cry at 2AM fanfic. Like dude. If you're an EXO-L or were into EXO since the early "Exotic" days, then you know what Anterograde Tomorrow is. Seriously though, even if fanfics aren't your thing, you definitely need to read this. It's so beautifully written and it will seriously give you sad depressing feels at 2AM. And yes it's better to read this at 2AM and drown in angsty sadness.
Anterograde Tomorrow
Summary: Kyungsoo is stuck in the hours while Jongin begs the seconds, because time stops for someone who can't remember and runs from someone who can't miss the last train home.
9. Have you ever regretted getting into kpop?
Definitely no. It's one of the best decisions I made in my entire life because it changed me for the best and helped me become the person I am today :)
Tuesday, October 4, 2016
New glasses~
I feel cute in my new glasses :3 Natural and quirky according to one of my friends haha :D
Monday, October 3, 2016
Successful connections and some feels
Right now I'm typing out whatever I can think of so that I can get in the mood to actually work on my essay that I've been procrastinating on for a long time.
You know this whole getting over him this isn't really working out for me lol. It's like I dunno. It has its ups and downs. Like life. It's been pretty chill so far. He's busy. I'm busy. But when we do have time to text we text. Yeah, it's pretty chill right now. I know it won't be for long but I want to savor the good times and the chill times yah know? Yeah I still love him and all that. At times I wonder if my feelings for him are drifting away just because things are chill and that's obviously not the case. It's just means that we're comfortable with each other and that's good. You don't want to feel uncomfortable with someone that's close to you. If things are, then you two gotta work it out somehow. Being understanding is very important too. For example, if you know that the other person is really busy and isn't responding to your texts and you're freaking out about that, chill. That person will respond to you eventually. Besides, at least you're not being ignored and that the person actually will give you a part of their time for you. I mean, it's not much but it's something. Anyway, yeah chill man. Be understanding. Or maybe I'm just comfortable feeling that way towards him. Probably both. Oh yeah communication is key to any friendship and relationship. It goes in hand with being understanding. Being comfortable with someone means that both people are understanding and accepting of each other and honest (and by honest I mean being straight-forward and not ambiguous). That's just me though. Now, I've never been in a relationship before and so what I just said might not be considered legitimate but I've seen what my friends that are still in successful 3+ years of a relationship do and it's pretty much all that. But I have been friends with this guy for a while and at one point, I thought that our friendship was over. Like "I'm just gonna pretend that you don't exist" over because he did something that really hurt me. But yah know things happened, conversations, second chances, understanding each other, honesty, and now he's one of my best friends LOL. I didn't forgive him for what he did though. Let's just say that it really affected me physically and mentally. But what counts is that we're still friends to this day and I'm so happy and thankful that I decided to message him that one night. Or that one day that freaked the hell out of me. I mean it showed that he was really sorry. Knowing me, I can't ignore something like that because I overthink. Thanks God for that moment haha. He still considers me as one of his best friends but I dunno... I still feel like I'm not because I don't feel worthy enough. It's still one of the things I think about today. I have those times when I feel insecure about how much I mean to people. I mean, I know that my self worth shouldn't be based on how much you're worth to someone else but I have those thoughts at times. I'm human just like you. BUT a majority of the time I know I'm worth much more that someone's opinion of me. My perspective of myself is enough because it's what makes me feel respected and beautiful.
I have a headache now... I dunno why I've been getting headaches lately... Maybe it's the glasses? I dunno... Sleep? No... I took a nap in the afternoon after church. Well, technically after I walked home from the park. I was on the swing for 30 minutes and was so sore after I got off. I was walking weirdly. Like in small steps when I feel cute at times haha. But yeah I think I'm gonna get bruises on my arms and hips lol. Kinky thinking a bit there LOL. But it was worth it. I haven't been on a swing in a long time. I felt so innocent, happy, and free. It takes me back to the happier memories of my childhood when my dad would push me on the swings at the park that was near my house. I love going on the swings and obviously I still do. I know I'm gonna go back there after church every Sunday from now on.
My left ear hurts because of the left temple of my new glasses. I dunno why my right side doesn't hurt. Ugh I just touched the outer part of the top of my left ear and it's so sore...
I'm feeling a bit sick to the stomach now... I think I'll go and do some research for my essay and then try to come up with something tomorrow. It's due tomorrow too but I got an A on the first essay I rushed sooooo... yeah. College procrastination at its finest.
You know this whole getting over him this isn't really working out for me lol. It's like I dunno. It has its ups and downs. Like life. It's been pretty chill so far. He's busy. I'm busy. But when we do have time to text we text. Yeah, it's pretty chill right now. I know it won't be for long but I want to savor the good times and the chill times yah know? Yeah I still love him and all that. At times I wonder if my feelings for him are drifting away just because things are chill and that's obviously not the case. It's just means that we're comfortable with each other and that's good. You don't want to feel uncomfortable with someone that's close to you. If things are, then you two gotta work it out somehow. Being understanding is very important too. For example, if you know that the other person is really busy and isn't responding to your texts and you're freaking out about that, chill. That person will respond to you eventually. Besides, at least you're not being ignored and that the person actually will give you a part of their time for you. I mean, it's not much but it's something. Anyway, yeah chill man. Be understanding. Or maybe I'm just comfortable feeling that way towards him. Probably both. Oh yeah communication is key to any friendship and relationship. It goes in hand with being understanding. Being comfortable with someone means that both people are understanding and accepting of each other and honest (and by honest I mean being straight-forward and not ambiguous). That's just me though. Now, I've never been in a relationship before and so what I just said might not be considered legitimate but I've seen what my friends that are still in successful 3+ years of a relationship do and it's pretty much all that. But I have been friends with this guy for a while and at one point, I thought that our friendship was over. Like "I'm just gonna pretend that you don't exist" over because he did something that really hurt me. But yah know things happened, conversations, second chances, understanding each other, honesty, and now he's one of my best friends LOL. I didn't forgive him for what he did though. Let's just say that it really affected me physically and mentally. But what counts is that we're still friends to this day and I'm so happy and thankful that I decided to message him that one night. Or that one day that freaked the hell out of me. I mean it showed that he was really sorry. Knowing me, I can't ignore something like that because I overthink. Thanks God for that moment haha. He still considers me as one of his best friends but I dunno... I still feel like I'm not because I don't feel worthy enough. It's still one of the things I think about today. I have those times when I feel insecure about how much I mean to people. I mean, I know that my self worth shouldn't be based on how much you're worth to someone else but I have those thoughts at times. I'm human just like you. BUT a majority of the time I know I'm worth much more that someone's opinion of me. My perspective of myself is enough because it's what makes me feel respected and beautiful.
I have a headache now... I dunno why I've been getting headaches lately... Maybe it's the glasses? I dunno... Sleep? No... I took a nap in the afternoon after church. Well, technically after I walked home from the park. I was on the swing for 30 minutes and was so sore after I got off. I was walking weirdly. Like in small steps when I feel cute at times haha. But yeah I think I'm gonna get bruises on my arms and hips lol. Kinky thinking a bit there LOL. But it was worth it. I haven't been on a swing in a long time. I felt so innocent, happy, and free. It takes me back to the happier memories of my childhood when my dad would push me on the swings at the park that was near my house. I love going on the swings and obviously I still do. I know I'm gonna go back there after church every Sunday from now on.
My left ear hurts because of the left temple of my new glasses. I dunno why my right side doesn't hurt. Ugh I just touched the outer part of the top of my left ear and it's so sore...
I'm feeling a bit sick to the stomach now... I think I'll go and do some research for my essay and then try to come up with something tomorrow. It's due tomorrow too but I got an A on the first essay I rushed sooooo... yeah. College procrastination at its finest.
Saturday, October 1, 2016
More about me pt. 4
Survey #153 (I forgot the source. My bad. I'll edit it in if I find it)
I take it you like someone? If so, who do you like?
Haha. Just go through my blog a bit. You'll find out.
Anything sexual stuff happen in the past two months?
Yes but I'm not saying what it was lol. (Still a virgin don't worry haha)
Is your phone right next to you, or at least close by?
Yeup
What windows are open on your computer right now?
Facebook, tumblr, my blog
Anything you would like to say to someone?
Yeup "OMG IZ U DED MAYN"
Last place you went besides your house?
This chinese restaurant.
Have you ever wanted someone so bad, and then they completely stopped talking to you?
Hahaha yeah. It was bad.
Is your phone a touch screen?
Yeup
Who is the last person to call you?
My momma~
What was the last movie you watched?
Suicide Squad. Omfg it was bad.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Studying, maybe going to the mall to buy some ice cream or buy some tights that I've been wanting for a long time.
Was 2009 a good year for you?
No. It was horrible.
Do any of your friends dislike each other?
Surprisingly no haha
Who knows your biggest secret?
One of my best friends.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
AHAHA. no. That's literally impossible.
How do you know?
Because I know. Trust me.
Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
Well I hate someone for no good reason so no. I really don't care. I can be petty and salty :3
Are you in a good mood?
I guess so yeah
Do you think ex's can remain friends?
It depends honestly. So yes and no.
Were you single on your last birthday?
Yeup. Single and fabulous.
Are you starting to realize anything?
Not really.
Have you ever thought about giving up on someone, but couldn't?
Yeup.
Do you follow rules or break them?
Majority of the time follow them.
Are you currently looking forward to anything?
Mmmmm going to the mall tomorrow.
Could you go a day without eating?
Without eating something solid yes. I bought a smoothie at school and it was the only thing I consumed within 6 hours.
How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
None.
What are you doing right now, besides this?
Listening to music.
When you listen to a new song, do you usually play it over and over?
Yeah. If I really like it of course. If I'm not really into it, then I listen to it over and over until I start liking it. It's weird. lol
Do you scream stuff out the car window?
No. That's weird...
You're single, right?
Damn right I am. It's so liberating and satisfying to not have anyone hold you back.
How's that going for you?
Amazing. I don't have to spend money on other people but me and a few special people :3
Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?
Nope.
Who's the first person you spoke to in 2010?
I dunno lol
Do you prefer being called your actual name or a nick name?
Either one is fine.
Do you ever want to get married?
Yeah but I probably won't honestly knowing me.
Is there someone who makes you blush when you just say hi to them?
Yeah. I dunno how it's possible for me to talk to him honestly. Especially face to face omg. I had a hard time looking at his face while we were talking the last time we saw each other.
How was your Saturday night?
Well today is technically Saturday sooooo I hope that my Saturday night will be cool and chill.
I take it you like someone? If so, who do you like?
Haha. Just go through my blog a bit. You'll find out.
Anything sexual stuff happen in the past two months?
Yes but I'm not saying what it was lol. (Still a virgin don't worry haha)
Is your phone right next to you, or at least close by?
Yeup
What windows are open on your computer right now?
Facebook, tumblr, my blog
Anything you would like to say to someone?
Yeup "OMG IZ U DED MAYN"
Last place you went besides your house?
This chinese restaurant.
Have you ever wanted someone so bad, and then they completely stopped talking to you?
Hahaha yeah. It was bad.
Is your phone a touch screen?
Yeup
Who is the last person to call you?
My momma~
What was the last movie you watched?
Suicide Squad. Omfg it was bad.
What are you doing tomorrow?
Studying, maybe going to the mall to buy some ice cream or buy some tights that I've been wanting for a long time.
Was 2009 a good year for you?
No. It was horrible.
Do any of your friends dislike each other?
Surprisingly no haha
Who knows your biggest secret?
One of my best friends.
Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
AHAHA. no. That's literally impossible.
How do you know?
Because I know. Trust me.
Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
Well I hate someone for no good reason so no. I really don't care. I can be petty and salty :3
Are you in a good mood?
I guess so yeah
Do you think ex's can remain friends?
It depends honestly. So yes and no.
Were you single on your last birthday?
Yeup. Single and fabulous.
Are you starting to realize anything?
Not really.
Have you ever thought about giving up on someone, but couldn't?
Yeup.
Do you follow rules or break them?
Majority of the time follow them.
Are you currently looking forward to anything?
Mmmmm going to the mall tomorrow.
Could you go a day without eating?
Without eating something solid yes. I bought a smoothie at school and it was the only thing I consumed within 6 hours.
How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?
None.
What are you doing right now, besides this?
Listening to music.
When you listen to a new song, do you usually play it over and over?
Yeah. If I really like it of course. If I'm not really into it, then I listen to it over and over until I start liking it. It's weird. lol
Do you scream stuff out the car window?
No. That's weird...
You're single, right?
Damn right I am. It's so liberating and satisfying to not have anyone hold you back.
How's that going for you?
Amazing. I don't have to spend money on other people but me and a few special people :3
Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?
Nope.
Who's the first person you spoke to in 2010?
I dunno lol
Do you prefer being called your actual name or a nick name?
Either one is fine.
Do you ever want to get married?
Yeah but I probably won't honestly knowing me.
Is there someone who makes you blush when you just say hi to them?
Yeah. I dunno how it's possible for me to talk to him honestly. Especially face to face omg. I had a hard time looking at his face while we were talking the last time we saw each other.
How was your Saturday night?
Well today is technically Saturday sooooo I hope that my Saturday night will be cool and chill.
More about me pt.3
I gave up on the questionnaire with 101 questions. So now I'm doing one that has 155. Don't ask why. I don't know why either.
The ask/send a number to inbox questionanaire!!! - alexnotsosecretworld
1. Full name:
Melissa Ann Mercado Isla
2. Zodiac sign:
Gemini
3. 3 fears:
Being lonely for a long time, feeling like I've been used again
4. 3 things
I don't get it but ok three things. Cheese, chocolate, tea
5. 4 turn on's
intelligence, good sense of humor, likes kpop, gives good hugs
6. 4 turn off's
being ignorant and close-minded, doesn't like animals, a rude attitude, being impatient af
7. My best friend?
Do multiple best friends count?
8. Sexual orientation?
Straight
9. My best first date?
HAHAHAHA THAT'S HILARIOUS. Never went on a date.
10. How tall am I?
5' yeup short af. It's a blessing and challenge.
11. What do I miss?
My mom's cooking, milk tea from Milpitas
12. What time was I born?
I honestly have no idea. My parents lost my birth certificate. Oops.
13. Favorite color?
Green~~
14. Do I have a crush?
Sadly yes. Why sadly? Because I overthink shit that's why. But yeah I do.
15. Favorite quote?
"Cogito ergo sum. I think, therefore I am." - René Descartes
16. Favorite place?
A buffet.
17. Favorite food?
Sushi
18. Do I use sarcasm?
Well I don't know. Do I?
19. What am I listening to now?
Epik High's version of Eyes, Nose, Lips.
20. First thing I notice in new person?
The way the person talks.
21. Shoe size?
Women: 5 Men: 2
22. Eye color?
Brown
23. Hair color?
Black with a faded red color on the ends
24. Favorite style of clothing?
25. Ever done a prank call?
Nope.
26. What color of underwear I'm wearing now?
O__O um pink... getting a bit curious to why that question.
27. Meaning behind my URL?
I'm always feeling emotions because I'm an emotional person.
28. Favorite movie?
Rapunzel
29. Favorite song?
Don't have one.
30. Favorite band?
SHINee <3 They're not a band but a kpop group with 5 adorable idiots that I love.
31. How I feel right now?
Cold because it's cold in the living room, a cramped feeling in my left leg
32. Someone I love.
Just go through the Emotions gmfu tag. You get the idea.
33. My current relationship status.
Single af. Probably gonna stay single af for the rest of my life tbh...
34. My relationship with my parents.
Eh. It's ok. They love me, I love them. Pretty much.
35. Favorite holiday.
Thanksgiving. Because food.
36. Tattoos and piercings I have.
I have two piercings. One on each ear lobe.
37. Tattoos and piercings I want.
I dunno about tattoos. It's a big commitment to get one. I want an upper lobe one on my left ear and a helix on my right ear.
38. The reason I joined Blogger.
Read my intro lol
39. Do I and my last ex hate each other?
LOL what ex. Never had one.
40. Do I ever get "good morning" or "good night" texts?
Not everyday. Sometimes yeah.
41. Have I ever kissed the last person I texted?
No.
42. When did I last hold hands?
In church.
43. How long does it take for me to get ready in the morning?
like 20 mins if I'm rushing. An hour and 30 mins if I'm not.
44. Have I shaved my legs in the past three days?
Yeup. Gotta shave them soon.
45. Where am I right now?
In the living room of my apartment.
46. If I were drunk & can't stand, who's taking care of me?
One of my best friends. Genevieveeeeeeeeee <3
47. Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
Depends on the situation.
48. Do I live with my mom or dad?
Neither. I'm on my own in the city.
49. Am I excited for anything?
Not really...
50. Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
Mhm. It's cool. We can talk about anything. Literally anything haha.
51. How often do I wear a fake smile?
I used to wear a fake smile but I don't anymore. I'll save the explanation for another post.
52. When was the last time I hugged someone?
When my friend Lisa and I had to go our separate ways after going out to eat lunch.
53. What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
Well nothing would happen because I never kissed anyone LOOOOOL
54. Is there anyone I trust even though I shouldn't?
Nope. I'm very selective with who I trust.
55. What is something I disliked about today?
Nothing really. Today was ok.
56. If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
SHINee <3
57. What do I think about the most?
Feelings for this dude. lol oops. He won't read this anyway.
58. What's my strangest talent?
I can eat a lot of things. Except raw oysters and internal organs except intestines.
59. Do I have any strange phobias?
I really hate things that squirm like worms.
60. Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
In front~
61. What was the last lie I told?
I don't love him. LOL. Nothing much happening after I admitted it. Just the same shit with stronger feelings. Yah know, insecurities about myself and all that.
62. Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Talking on the phone. OH MY GOODNESS. I'm sorry I can't but think of those late nights I'm so sorry I just think about it automatically because it happened so many times haha.
63. Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
Yes to both.
64. Do I believe in magic?
In a sense yes.
65. Do I believe in luck?
Yeup~
66. What's the weather like right now?
Cold and windy
67. What was the last book I read?
The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
68. Do I like the smell of gasoline?
Ew nope.
69. Do I have any nicknames?
Isla
70. What was the worse injury I've ever had?
When I was younger, I was at the park and I slipped off of this balance thingy and scraped my knee. There was a lot of blood LOL.
71. Do I spend money or save it?
I save because I'm a broke-ass college student.
72. Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
Ouch stretching my tongue feels weird. No I can't.
73. Is there anything pink 10 feet from me?
A bag and I guess my underwear? O_O
74. Favorite animal?
Hamsters <3 I wish I could be fat and cute and sleep all day.
75. What was I doing at 12AM?
Blogging
76. What do I think Satan's last name is?
I dunno lol Probably something in Latin
77. What's a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
Bestie - Love options KDT <3 Good times and good vibes :3
78. How can you win my heart?
WELL. Just like kpop. You automatically win my heart. And food. And hugs. Really nice ones.
79. What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
"Her presence is like sunlight, bright and beautiful." or "She is the bright star in my dark night."
80. What is my favorite word?
Happy or Beautiful
81. My top 5 blogs on tumblr?
I just scroll down my dash and reblog whatever I like. I don't have a favorite blog.
82. If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
Can someone help me pay for college and med school?
83. Do I have any relatives in jail?
I hope not...
84. I accidentally ate some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow me with the superpower of my choice! What is that power?
To be invisible. I'm such a stalker :3 But yah know free rides to places~
85. What would be a question I'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
I'm really open and honest most of the time but if specific people ask me "Do you like anyone?" then I straight up say no. LOL
86. What is my current desktop picture?
A picture of SHINee all sexy lookin.
87. Had sex?
Nope. Probably never will and stay a virgin my entire life.
88. Bought condoms?
No. Never needed to buy them anyway lol
89. Gotten pregnant?
THANK GOODNESS NO. My life would've been difficult now if I got pregnant now.
90. Failed a class?
Yeup. In 5th grade. I failed cuz I procrastinated. Oops.
91. Kissed a boy?
Nope. Never will cuz I'm a potato.
92. Kissed a girl?
Nope. I don't go that way.
93. Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
Nope. Lip virgin affffff
94. Had a job?
NO IM SO PISSED I NEVER HAD ONE OMFG. My parents were so against me getting a job.
95. Left the house without my wallet?
Yeah cuz my mom had money lol
96. Bullied someone on the Internet?
Nope. If you're gonna talk shit, then at least tell me who you are you coward.
97. Had sex in public?
Uh no I'm still a virgin. Even if I wasn't, exhibition isn't my thing.
98. Played on a sports team?
Yeup. Basketball, softball, and track. Man I miss working out.
99. Smoked weed?
No but I'd be interested in trying it once. I'm not really into smoking in general cuz I love my lungs.
100. Did drugs?
I overdosed on cough syrup before. #badassaf
101. Smoked cigarettes?
Ew no. Nasty shit.
102. Drank alcohol?
Yeup. I'm light weight though cuz I'm a tiny person.
103. Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
Nah. Cuz bacon and steak.
104. Been overweight?
Nope.
105. Been underweight?
Yeup. When I was younger like around elementary school, I used to be really skinny because I was a picky eater. Now I can eat almost anything haha
106. Been to a wedding?
Yeup. They're really cute.
107. Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
Yeah for this AP Government partner project with one of my best friends. I was awake for more than 24 hours.
108. Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
Yeup. I don't watch TV that often so when I do find something interesting on TV, I can watch for hours.
109. Been outside my home country?
Nope but I would love to travel around the world with my family. My parents deserve it, especially my mom.
110. Gotten my heart broken?
Oh yeah definitely. Plenty of times. It's the reason why I've been single my entire life and don't like the idea of me being in a relationship. I'm insecure about stuff like that obviously lol.
111. Been to a professional sports game?
Yeah but sports isn't my thing.
112. Broken a bone?
Thank goodness no.
113. Cut myself?
No... I was too scared to do that back then when I was really depressed. I bruised myself instead.
114. Been to prom?
Hell yeah. Lit af. I was wild at prom hehe. KDT fam made prom lit. The middle of the dance floor was so hot omg. Grinding trains and circles are fun just sayin ;)
115. Been in an airplane?
Yeup. It was kewls.
116. Fly by helicopter?
No but that sounds like fun~
117. What concerts have I been to?
SM Town concert in LA. I SAW SHINEE LIVE THATS LIKE. UGH. TALENT AND HAPPINESS AND FEELS. I lost my voice the day after hehe.
118. Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
Nope.
119. Learned another language?
Nah. Tried to but I was busy with other stuff like kpop and kdramas :3
120. Wore make up?
Yeh. It makes me look like my age.
121. Lost my virginity before I was 18?
Omg no. I had more important things like education and KDT. LOL
122. Had oral sex?
Uh no I'm a virgin LOOOL
123. Dyed my hair?
Yus. A black, brown, red ombre. I wanna dye my hair pastel purple~
124. Voted in a presidential election?
THIS YEAR I WILL BECAUSE I'M A CITIZEN THAT LIVES IN THIS TERRIFYING COUNTRY. Like dude. Trump might be the president. Just no.
125. Rode in an ambulance?
No. I might later on cuz I wanna be a surgeon.
126. Had a surgery?
Yeup. Oral surgery for this stubborn tooth that wouldn't grow out. Now it is and I'm happy I got that surgery or else I would've waited maybe more than 5 years for the stupid tooth to grow out.
127. Met someone famous?
YEAH. Politically famous. Mike Hondaaaa. He's such a cool person hehe.
128. Stalked someone on a social network?
Well duh. Everyone does that.
129. Peed outside?
Well yeah. So difficult for people with vaginas to pee. Struggles...
130. Been fishing?
Nooooooo. It looks really boring.
131. Helped with charity?
Yes it's a wonderful thing to do~~
132. Been rejected by a crush?
Hahaha. Yeah. Plenty of times.
133. Broken a mirror?
No because I'm not that ugly.
134. What do I want for my birthday?
A few hoodies from universities (I love hoodies omgg), tickets to a kpop concert, lace tights, a hamster, chokers, dark lipsticks, eyeliner, a nice hug from a special someone and some time with him~ (ugh kill me now feelings go away leave)
135. How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
Three or maybe four. I dunno their names lol. Depends on the gender.
136. Was I named after anyone?
Nope.
137. Do I like my handwriting?
Eh. It's ok.
138. What was my favorite toy as a child?
A book because I was always reading.
139. Favorite TV show?
Don't have one but I like watching the cooking channel.
140. Where do I want to live when I'm older?
In the city.
141. Play any musical instrument?
Does my voice count? LOL
142. One of my scars, how did I get it?
The little kitty scratched me cuz she wanted to play. It's ok because I can't get mad at anything that's cute.
143. Favorite pizza topping?
Anything with meat on it~
144. Am I afraid of the dark?
Sometimes yeah...
145. Am I afraid of heights?
Nope thankfully.
146. Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
Hell yeah haha.
147. Have I ever tried my hardest and then got disappointed in the end?
Yeah, it's sucks...
148. What I'm really bad at.
Writing.
149. What my greatest achievements are.
Getting over depression, graduating from high school, somehow passing my classes in college so far
150. The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me.
You're stupid.
151. What I'd do if I won in a lottery.
Pay off my parents' bills, take my family on a trip, buy a house, buy my mom a Louis Vuitton purse, buy my dad that one car he wants lol, buy my sister a huge stuffed animal from sanrio, buy my brother whatever he wants because my family doesn't spend much money on him and I feel bad, buy my grandma some new clothes and warm blanket, buy a shit load of kpop albums, travel to South Korea for a week or two, go to a kpop concert, clothes, and food.
152. What do I like about myself?
I like that I'm a loving, understanding, and passionate person.
153. My closest tumblr friend.
Don't have one.
154. Something I fantasize about.
Haha. It's a bit rated R.
155. Any question you'd like
Can you help me pay for college and med school?
The ask/send a number to inbox questionanaire!!! - alexnotsosecretworld
1. Full name:
Melissa Ann Mercado Isla
2. Zodiac sign:
Gemini
3. 3 fears:
Being lonely for a long time, feeling like I've been used again
4. 3 things
I don't get it but ok three things. Cheese, chocolate, tea
5. 4 turn on's
intelligence, good sense of humor, likes kpop, gives good hugs
6. 4 turn off's
being ignorant and close-minded, doesn't like animals, a rude attitude, being impatient af
7. My best friend?
Do multiple best friends count?
8. Sexual orientation?
Straight
9. My best first date?
HAHAHAHA THAT'S HILARIOUS. Never went on a date.
10. How tall am I?
5' yeup short af. It's a blessing and challenge.
11. What do I miss?
My mom's cooking, milk tea from Milpitas
12. What time was I born?
I honestly have no idea. My parents lost my birth certificate. Oops.
13. Favorite color?
Green~~
14. Do I have a crush?
Sadly yes. Why sadly? Because I overthink shit that's why. But yeah I do.
15. Favorite quote?
"Cogito ergo sum. I think, therefore I am." - René Descartes
16. Favorite place?
A buffet.
17. Favorite food?
Sushi
18. Do I use sarcasm?
Well I don't know. Do I?
19. What am I listening to now?
Epik High's version of Eyes, Nose, Lips.
20. First thing I notice in new person?
The way the person talks.
21. Shoe size?
Women: 5 Men: 2
22. Eye color?
Brown
23. Hair color?
Black with a faded red color on the ends
24. Favorite style of clothing?
25. Ever done a prank call?
Nope.
26. What color of underwear I'm wearing now?
O__O um pink... getting a bit curious to why that question.
27. Meaning behind my URL?
I'm always feeling emotions because I'm an emotional person.
28. Favorite movie?
Rapunzel
29. Favorite song?
Don't have one.
30. Favorite band?
SHINee <3 They're not a band but a kpop group with 5 adorable idiots that I love.
31. How I feel right now?
Cold because it's cold in the living room, a cramped feeling in my left leg
32. Someone I love.
Just go through the Emotions gmfu tag. You get the idea.
33. My current relationship status.
Single af. Probably gonna stay single af for the rest of my life tbh...
34. My relationship with my parents.
Eh. It's ok. They love me, I love them. Pretty much.
35. Favorite holiday.
Thanksgiving. Because food.
36. Tattoos and piercings I have.
I have two piercings. One on each ear lobe.
37. Tattoos and piercings I want.
I dunno about tattoos. It's a big commitment to get one. I want an upper lobe one on my left ear and a helix on my right ear.
38. The reason I joined Blogger.
Read my intro lol
39. Do I and my last ex hate each other?
LOL what ex. Never had one.
40. Do I ever get "good morning" or "good night" texts?
Not everyday. Sometimes yeah.
41. Have I ever kissed the last person I texted?
No.
42. When did I last hold hands?
In church.
43. How long does it take for me to get ready in the morning?
like 20 mins if I'm rushing. An hour and 30 mins if I'm not.
44. Have I shaved my legs in the past three days?
Yeup. Gotta shave them soon.
45. Where am I right now?
In the living room of my apartment.
46. If I were drunk & can't stand, who's taking care of me?
One of my best friends. Genevieveeeeeeeeee <3
47. Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
Depends on the situation.
48. Do I live with my mom or dad?
Neither. I'm on my own in the city.
49. Am I excited for anything?
Not really...
50. Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
Mhm. It's cool. We can talk about anything. Literally anything haha.
51. How often do I wear a fake smile?
I used to wear a fake smile but I don't anymore. I'll save the explanation for another post.
52. When was the last time I hugged someone?
When my friend Lisa and I had to go our separate ways after going out to eat lunch.
53. What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
Well nothing would happen because I never kissed anyone LOOOOOL
54. Is there anyone I trust even though I shouldn't?
Nope. I'm very selective with who I trust.
55. What is something I disliked about today?
Nothing really. Today was ok.
56. If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
SHINee <3
57. What do I think about the most?
Feelings for this dude. lol oops. He won't read this anyway.
58. What's my strangest talent?
I can eat a lot of things. Except raw oysters and internal organs except intestines.
59. Do I have any strange phobias?
I really hate things that squirm like worms.
60. Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
In front~
61. What was the last lie I told?
I don't love him. LOL. Nothing much happening after I admitted it. Just the same shit with stronger feelings. Yah know, insecurities about myself and all that.
62. Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Talking on the phone. OH MY GOODNESS. I'm sorry I can't but think of those late nights I'm so sorry I just think about it automatically because it happened so many times haha.
63. Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
Yes to both.
64. Do I believe in magic?
In a sense yes.
65. Do I believe in luck?
Yeup~
66. What's the weather like right now?
Cold and windy
67. What was the last book I read?
The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
68. Do I like the smell of gasoline?
Ew nope.
69. Do I have any nicknames?
Isla
70. What was the worse injury I've ever had?
When I was younger, I was at the park and I slipped off of this balance thingy and scraped my knee. There was a lot of blood LOL.
71. Do I spend money or save it?
I save because I'm a broke-ass college student.
72. Can I touch my nose with a tongue?
Ouch stretching my tongue feels weird. No I can't.
73. Is there anything pink 10 feet from me?
A bag and I guess my underwear? O_O
74. Favorite animal?
Hamsters <3 I wish I could be fat and cute and sleep all day.
75. What was I doing at 12AM?
Blogging
76. What do I think Satan's last name is?
I dunno lol Probably something in Latin
77. What's a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
Bestie - Love options KDT <3 Good times and good vibes :3
78. How can you win my heart?
WELL. Just like kpop. You automatically win my heart. And food. And hugs. Really nice ones.
79. What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
"Her presence is like sunlight, bright and beautiful." or "She is the bright star in my dark night."
80. What is my favorite word?
Happy or Beautiful
81. My top 5 blogs on tumblr?
I just scroll down my dash and reblog whatever I like. I don't have a favorite blog.
82. If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
Can someone help me pay for college and med school?
83. Do I have any relatives in jail?
I hope not...
84. I accidentally ate some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow me with the superpower of my choice! What is that power?
To be invisible. I'm such a stalker :3 But yah know free rides to places~
85. What would be a question I'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
I'm really open and honest most of the time but if specific people ask me "Do you like anyone?" then I straight up say no. LOL
86. What is my current desktop picture?
A picture of SHINee all sexy lookin.
87. Had sex?
Nope. Probably never will and stay a virgin my entire life.
88. Bought condoms?
No. Never needed to buy them anyway lol
89. Gotten pregnant?
THANK GOODNESS NO. My life would've been difficult now if I got pregnant now.
90. Failed a class?
Yeup. In 5th grade. I failed cuz I procrastinated. Oops.
91. Kissed a boy?
Nope. Never will cuz I'm a potato.
92. Kissed a girl?
Nope. I don't go that way.
93. Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
Nope. Lip virgin affffff
94. Had a job?
NO IM SO PISSED I NEVER HAD ONE OMFG. My parents were so against me getting a job.
95. Left the house without my wallet?
Yeah cuz my mom had money lol
96. Bullied someone on the Internet?
Nope. If you're gonna talk shit, then at least tell me who you are you coward.
97. Had sex in public?
Uh no I'm still a virgin. Even if I wasn't, exhibition isn't my thing.
98. Played on a sports team?
Yeup. Basketball, softball, and track. Man I miss working out.
99. Smoked weed?
No but I'd be interested in trying it once. I'm not really into smoking in general cuz I love my lungs.
100. Did drugs?
I overdosed on cough syrup before. #badassaf
101. Smoked cigarettes?
Ew no. Nasty shit.
102. Drank alcohol?
Yeup. I'm light weight though cuz I'm a tiny person.
103. Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
Nah. Cuz bacon and steak.
104. Been overweight?
Nope.
105. Been underweight?
Yeup. When I was younger like around elementary school, I used to be really skinny because I was a picky eater. Now I can eat almost anything haha
106. Been to a wedding?
Yeup. They're really cute.
107. Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
Yeah for this AP Government partner project with one of my best friends. I was awake for more than 24 hours.
108. Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
Yeup. I don't watch TV that often so when I do find something interesting on TV, I can watch for hours.
109. Been outside my home country?
Nope but I would love to travel around the world with my family. My parents deserve it, especially my mom.
110. Gotten my heart broken?
Oh yeah definitely. Plenty of times. It's the reason why I've been single my entire life and don't like the idea of me being in a relationship. I'm insecure about stuff like that obviously lol.
111. Been to a professional sports game?
Yeah but sports isn't my thing.
112. Broken a bone?
Thank goodness no.
113. Cut myself?
No... I was too scared to do that back then when I was really depressed. I bruised myself instead.
114. Been to prom?
Hell yeah. Lit af. I was wild at prom hehe. KDT fam made prom lit. The middle of the dance floor was so hot omg. Grinding trains and circles are fun just sayin ;)
115. Been in an airplane?
Yeup. It was kewls.
116. Fly by helicopter?
No but that sounds like fun~
117. What concerts have I been to?
SM Town concert in LA. I SAW SHINEE LIVE THATS LIKE. UGH. TALENT AND HAPPINESS AND FEELS. I lost my voice the day after hehe.
118. Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
Nope.
119. Learned another language?
Nah. Tried to but I was busy with other stuff like kpop and kdramas :3
120. Wore make up?
Yeh. It makes me look like my age.
121. Lost my virginity before I was 18?
Omg no. I had more important things like education and KDT. LOL
122. Had oral sex?
Uh no I'm a virgin LOOOL
123. Dyed my hair?
Yus. A black, brown, red ombre. I wanna dye my hair pastel purple~
124. Voted in a presidential election?
THIS YEAR I WILL BECAUSE I'M A CITIZEN THAT LIVES IN THIS TERRIFYING COUNTRY. Like dude. Trump might be the president. Just no.
125. Rode in an ambulance?
No. I might later on cuz I wanna be a surgeon.
126. Had a surgery?
Yeup. Oral surgery for this stubborn tooth that wouldn't grow out. Now it is and I'm happy I got that surgery or else I would've waited maybe more than 5 years for the stupid tooth to grow out.
127. Met someone famous?
YEAH. Politically famous. Mike Hondaaaa. He's such a cool person hehe.
128. Stalked someone on a social network?
Well duh. Everyone does that.
129. Peed outside?
Well yeah. So difficult for people with vaginas to pee. Struggles...
130. Been fishing?
Nooooooo. It looks really boring.
131. Helped with charity?
Yes it's a wonderful thing to do~~
132. Been rejected by a crush?
Hahaha. Yeah. Plenty of times.
133. Broken a mirror?
No because I'm not that ugly.
134. What do I want for my birthday?
A few hoodies from universities (I love hoodies omgg), tickets to a kpop concert, lace tights, a hamster, chokers, dark lipsticks, eyeliner, a nice hug from a special someone and some time with him~ (ugh kill me now feelings go away leave)
135. How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
Three or maybe four. I dunno their names lol. Depends on the gender.
136. Was I named after anyone?
Nope.
137. Do I like my handwriting?
Eh. It's ok.
138. What was my favorite toy as a child?
A book because I was always reading.
139. Favorite TV show?
Don't have one but I like watching the cooking channel.
140. Where do I want to live when I'm older?
In the city.
141. Play any musical instrument?
Does my voice count? LOL
142. One of my scars, how did I get it?
The little kitty scratched me cuz she wanted to play. It's ok because I can't get mad at anything that's cute.
143. Favorite pizza topping?
Anything with meat on it~
144. Am I afraid of the dark?
Sometimes yeah...
145. Am I afraid of heights?
Nope thankfully.
146. Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
Hell yeah haha.
147. Have I ever tried my hardest and then got disappointed in the end?
Yeah, it's sucks...
148. What I'm really bad at.
Writing.
149. What my greatest achievements are.
Getting over depression, graduating from high school, somehow passing my classes in college so far
150. The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me.
You're stupid.
151. What I'd do if I won in a lottery.
Pay off my parents' bills, take my family on a trip, buy a house, buy my mom a Louis Vuitton purse, buy my dad that one car he wants lol, buy my sister a huge stuffed animal from sanrio, buy my brother whatever he wants because my family doesn't spend much money on him and I feel bad, buy my grandma some new clothes and warm blanket, buy a shit load of kpop albums, travel to South Korea for a week or two, go to a kpop concert, clothes, and food.
152. What do I like about myself?
I like that I'm a loving, understanding, and passionate person.
153. My closest tumblr friend.
Don't have one.
154. Something I fantasize about.
Haha. It's a bit rated R.
155. Any question you'd like
Can you help me pay for college and med school?
How often do I wear a fake smile?
51. How often do I wear a fake smile?
I used to wear a fake smile often but not anymore. I'll save that for another post.
This brings back so many depressing moments, but it has a happy ending. Back then when I was really depressed and a bit suicidal, I read that smiling in the mirror helps when you just cried a lot so that people won't tell that you just cried a lot. One day, I was at a school festival and I felt lonely and ignored, as if you're surrounded by a lot of people but you feel like you don't belong. I went to the bathroom and cried. Then I tried smiling in the mirror because I didn't want people to see that I was crying a lot a few minutes ago. I looked like a mess. Then I tried smiling. It felt weird and uncomfortable at first but I went on to washing and wiping my face.
I kept doing that every time after I cried. I did it so often, it became a habit. After getting over my depression with the help of my friend Leah, I noticed something about myself while I was looking in the mirror.
"Wow. I'm pretty when I smile."
I realized I had a habit of smiling in front of the mirror and why it became a habit. I'm thankful for it.
To all those out there suffering from depression or having a bad day: Smile. Things will get better.
I used to wear a fake smile often but not anymore. I'll save that for another post.
This brings back so many depressing moments, but it has a happy ending. Back then when I was really depressed and a bit suicidal, I read that smiling in the mirror helps when you just cried a lot so that people won't tell that you just cried a lot. One day, I was at a school festival and I felt lonely and ignored, as if you're surrounded by a lot of people but you feel like you don't belong. I went to the bathroom and cried. Then I tried smiling in the mirror because I didn't want people to see that I was crying a lot a few minutes ago. I looked like a mess. Then I tried smiling. It felt weird and uncomfortable at first but I went on to washing and wiping my face.
I kept doing that every time after I cried. I did it so often, it became a habit. After getting over my depression with the help of my friend Leah, I noticed something about myself while I was looking in the mirror.
"Wow. I'm pretty when I smile."
I realized I had a habit of smiling in front of the mirror and why it became a habit. I'm thankful for it.
To all those out there suffering from depression or having a bad day: Smile. Things will get better.
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